The weblogs have been getting a lot of play on youtube, which is cool, I guess. I suppose it's only really cool if it will lead to actual answers for my actual questions. Hard to believe that more than 20 thousand people have watched this video.
But most people on youtube are more interested in my outward appearance that what is going on in my soul.
That's okay. It's not that different from all the other crap that's out there on youtube. I don't know why I thought it would be a safe place for me to vent. Everyone is far too suspicious. Oh well. I've enjoyed the comments I've received so far on the blog. I think that I'm really close to finding what I'm looking for. I wonder how long it will take for me to be able to drop my guard, and really let go?
It will take as long as you want it to take. I once listen to someone tell us that our "guard" is equale to our personal boundaries, they keep us safe, I dont agree with this anymore. I think some of Gods children keep a wall/guard/boundry around them to keep people out but it also keeps us in. We become stagnant, we become complacent, then one day we are pushed out for the world to see, bare, raw, unexposed. Kind of like Adam and Eve when they relized they we naked in the garden. Don't get me wrong, boundries are ok as long as they a part of life and not a way of life. As far as your exterior appearance, you are who you are, you can be who you want to be. Who do you want to be Joe?
Posted by: Kristine D. Knight-Holzwarth | August 24, 2007 at 05:27 PM